Misty Shackle's Blog
20th August
I am not sure how I feel about last night. I went out with Stephanie. We drank vodka and played Ring of Death. When I came back home there were several missed messages from Sam. I rang her back and Sam asked if she could come over so I said yes. From what I can remember she looked really good. I don't recall us actually having a conversation. I know we kissed and she took her top off and then her jeans. We moved into the bedroom. Sam did not want the light on which was okay because my vision was blurry anyhow so it was best relying on touch alone. Sam helped me take my clothes off and before we went any further I drank a pint glass of water to try and sober up. I know I made her come. I went down on her and even though I had to stop halfway through and drink more water she whispered that I was going to make her explode and then I did. I cannot remember having an orgasm. She wanted to talk but I was so tired I fell asleep.
In the morning I woke up before Sam. While she slept I bought a newspaper and watched my Girls Aloud concert DVD. Eventually she woke up. Sam was in a good mood. She relentlessly talked at me as I made bacon butties. We finished our breakfast and she asked what I was doing for the rest of the day. I said I was very busy. She said she would call me later then left. I went back to bed and stayed there for most of the day.
21st August
Sam insisted on coming over tonight. Monday is always a busy day because of work and I also like getting my food shopping done for the week. However I assented and she came over. We ordered Chinese takeaway and as I was washing the plates, Sam kissed the back of my neck. The consequences of leaving dirty plates out to harbour germs left my mind and I turned to face Sam. I tried to kiss her mouth but she moved her face and sucked the delicate skin on my neck. I was dimly aware that as she sucked harder I was going to be left with a mark but I was turned on so much that I didn't push her away. I did not want to cause any more mess in the lounge so I held her hand and gently guided her into the bedroom. I turned the light on but Sam switched if off saying she preferred having sex in the dark, it was more exciting. Considering it is the middle of summer it's not exactly pitch black in my room at 9pm. Sam lay on her stomach as I kissed, licked and sucked her neck, back and bottom. When I turned her over to face me, Sam's eyes were closed which gave me a chance to study her face. She is so beautiful. I took my time over her breasts and then moved downwards. It didn't take very long after that to make her come. She screamed out so loudly that I'm sure the neighbours must have heard. Once she recovered, Sam asked if there was anything she could do for me. I said whatever she wanted to would feel good. Sam's only slept with men so it's understandable she would be nervous. It was okay and besides, I did not want to stay up late because I had work the next day.
22nd August
Work was tiring and tiresome. Mike made some inane comment about the mark on my neck so I ignored him for the rest of the day. Sam came over without calling me first which annoyed me a little bit. I did snap at her saying that she didn't always have to come over to mine. She said her place was dirty at the moment but once it was clean I was more than welcome to stay over. I also asked why she gave me a love-bite. Sam joked that she must have got caught up in the passion of the moment and also that it was a sign to every woman that I was her property and for them to keep away. It is obvious Sam really doesn't know anything about being a lesbian in this area. The chances of getting chatted up by one woman, let alone a plethora, are less than zero.
We ordered takeaway because Sam persuaded me it was more fun to get off with each other than prepare a nutritious couscous. She stayed over and we had sex. I'm starting to get the impression that Sam does not want to try out oral sex on me. I will mention it next time we are together.
23rd August
I got my period so that put paid to any fumblings in the jungle with Sam. She did not come over which suited me. I took my time preparing dinner and it was a joy to eat fresh vegetables again. The mark Sam left on my neck looks worse. Deep purple in the middle it appears as if I have a mild strain of the bubonic plague. She's not exactly a feral animal but I will call the doctors' surgery and find out if a tetanus shot is required.
24th August
I had lunch with Kelly. She's invited me to a dinner party she and Dawn will be throwing and said I could bring a friend with me. I shall invite Stephanie to the party and I bet she will drive which means I can drink. Then Kelly asked if I ever got lonely and I said not really (I have not told her about Sam). Kelly did not seem to believe me because she said, "Poor Misty," and hugged me which was sweet of her.
A Bruise
A bruise
From my muse
I would never eschew
But should it fester
I shall sequester
From the rest-a
The world.
25th August
Dr Liebermann is now on holiday. As I was not in a controlled psychiatric environment for the first Friday in a long time I decided to recreate the atmosphere in the comfort of my lounge. I listened to an Enya CD my mum had bought me and got my box out. Sam rang to see if I wanted to have dinner with her. I agreed on the condition I had time to work on my box first. It is tatty from overuse so I shall have to get a bigger, sturdier model. I deliberated putting a note in my box regarding the lack of oral sex and eventually decided against it. Some things should stay private. Sam came over and because I'm so fed up of staying at my place I told her we should eat out. She said she didn't have much money so it was better we stayed in. Her logic is skewed because ordering pizza and nachos from Dominic's costs just as much as eating there and I told her this but then she started kissing my neck making me forget what I was saying. She offered to go down on me which I was really happy about but reminded her that I was still on my period which she had forgotten about. I told Sam she didn't have to do anything for me, I would focus all my attention on her. She had a great time and was very vocal. Later, when I was sure she was asleep I went into the bathroom and took care of myself. At one point I thought she woke up but she must have just been restless in her sleep.
26th August
Sam lounged in my bed until noon although, I was up at 9am cleaning the shower attachment. She awoke as I was reading the Saturday papers. She nuzzled my neck and told me to come back to bed where we could have some fun. I know it's not all about me but I wasn't in the mood not to have an orgasm again while she enjoyed my ministrations. Besides, I needed to iron a pile of clothes. When she realised I was not going to do what she wanted Sam asked what my plans were for the evening and I said I was going to a party with Steph. The conversation faltered, she ate breakfast in silence and then left. The more I think about it the more I wonder what we have in common. She is gorgeous and we both derive a lot of pleasure from her body but what else is there? We eat crap, have sex and that's it. We do not discuss world issues or the workings of damaged minds and we never go out. Does she like fusion jazz and papaya hand cream? Would she walk miles in the rain to deliver me a bouquet of lilies? If I had peritonitis, would she stay at my bedside and read me poetry by Keats? I suspect the answer to all these questions is no.
27th August
I am in hangover hell and want to kill the little shits playing under my bedroom window who are screaming like dispossessed banshees. Must drink water.
28th August
Kelly is not in work today. She rang in, put on a sick voice and said she had food poisoning. Surprisingly Lucy believed her. In a way I am relieved she is not in work. The party started off well. Stephanie and I took a reasonably priced Pinot Grigio and four bottles of white Belgian beer. Kelly introduced us to everyone, including Dawn. Dawn was not how I expected her to be at all. She was quite attractive and very funny without having to resort to crudity. Stephanie whispered that she was my type and I guess she would have been if we were both single. As the women were mainly from Kelly's hockey team, the conversation was mostly about The L Word. I got into a heated debate with one bespectacled woman who said Jenny was the most fascinating character in the series. Intermittant navel gazing coupled with poor literary ability (I don't care how many times the directors of the L Word try to convince the audience that Jenny is the next Virginia Woolf, she is not) does not make a person interesting. I got so het up by what Jennophile was saying that I had to walk away from the discussion or run the risk of completely losing it.
I went into the garden and was enjoying a cooling breeze when I realised Dawn was behind me. She said, she hoped she hadn't scared me and mentioned how much she had enjoyed our earlier conversation. Then she started telling me about how jealous Kelly gets and hates her speaking to any woman. I developed a slight case of déjà vu at this point. She was right in my personal space and it might be my imagination but I believe she meant to have me. I made out that I heard Stephanie calling me and briskly walked back into the house. I found Stephanie, told her we had to leave, so we did. We drove home in silence. Now I don't know what to do. Do I tell Kelly that her girlfriend made a pass at me? Maybe I was imagining it. Hoesnaffle is known for its mind-altering side effects so perhaps I drank too much. It is so unfair that Dr Liebermann is away whooping it up on holiday while I am dealing with a personal crisis. Shit, I'm just going to have to rely on Stephanie for advice. I tried calling her but the line was busy so I'll call again tomorrow. Then Sam rang and I let it go to the answer machine. I cannot face her while I'm in the midst of a bizarre love triangle. Knowing another woman wants me might send Sam into a destructive rage. She could go to Dawn's house and try to beat the crap out of her. Sam is a good Frisbee thrower but she lacks the lower body strength Dawn has amassed from years of intensive hockey. Dawn could literally kick Sam to the kerb.
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